I tell you lately while doing tons of yard work I tend to ponder on the most random things. For some reason today I started thinking about how I need to to weed through and sort my e-mail messages. So that became one of my nap time tasks… For the most part lately I don’t tend to get spam mail in my inbox now. However every once and while one will sneak by. Today that happened to be a spam mail for Mesothelioma lawyers. What the heck would I ever need one of those for. I can barely handle little home projects there is no way I am doing projects where I am coming in contact with asbestos. It just makes me laugh how obvious some spam mail is!
Friday 5: Annoyance
What’s the most annoying sound in the world? My husband grinding his teeth in the middle of the night when he is stressed and not getting enough sleep. Love you hunny!!!
Which of other people’s mannerisms do you find very annoying? This one is a bit hard for me because really the only thing that really annoys me from other people is disrespect and rudeness. Otherwise I can see past a mannerism to see the persone for who they are.
What do you do that really annoys others? I sometimes talk alot and it I know it can drives others nuts but I often want to make sure others are having fun and enjoying their time around me or I get nervous.
In what way has your own behavior recently caused you annoyance? I can not seem to walk away from chocolate. Even when I tell myself I do not need it I can’t seem to stop and it’s driving me nuts.
Who’s the most annoying person you know? Well it’s not a person but my dog has been driving me crazy with the windows and doors open. She thinks she needs to bark at everyone.
Ads
I don’t no about you but I sometimes get the oddest ads on websites lately. They are the kind of ads are that suppose to match what you are viewing or looking at and lately they have made no sense to me. I know that this is an always growing technology and that many companies get business this way but I was viewing something about kid birthday themes the other day on a site and the side bar ad was for tuxedo shirts. I am wondering what the heck that has to do with birthdays for kids but I just had to laugh. I can not imagine getting Logan into a Tux for a birthday party. Granted that makes me think ahead to when we will see him go to his first big important dance like Prom and that is very scary to think about for sure.
Healing
The sun is out and shinning today after a couple of days of rain. It seems as though God mourned with us and is now giving us hope and comfort. After a goodnights sleep I woke up feeling just a bit more at peace. I know that I miss him like crazy but I also know that we will heal. I am someone who needs to totally talk these things out so I have decided to start really sharing my feelings in my posts to help me heal and continue to stay present.
Realization
Joel and I were talking a bit ago about life insurance because we had gotten a call from AAA asking if we wanted to add some for us. We thought that we had life insurance on all of us but I asked Joel to double check since our agent was offering a great rate on term life insurance. So he went back and looked into what we thought we had for the both of us and for the kids and found that it had been through his old job. So at that point we only had a policy on Joel. So he called back our agent and set it up to get us all some life insurance. I recently heard of a mother that lost her life really early and because her husband had no insurance on her it was going to be hard to cover her funeral let alone the huge life changes of losing the Stay at home Mom of 2 or 3 little kids. I want to make sure that never happens here!
Sad Day
Yesterday was such a roller coaster of emotions. That morning we started to feel tons better about Ozzie because his kidney levels had returned to normal. So we thought that this was great news and that he just needed to recover from a possible infection. The doc on thought thought that there was a possible obstruction that may have cause his decline in health and that maybe it passed. If it hadn’t passed though he would probably need surgery.
After much talking Joel and I both agreed that if he did have an obstruction that surgery was not the best option for quality of life for Ozzie. They talked about alot of different things through out the day with our local vet. Many hard conversations were had.
We decide that they should recheck an x-ray and see what was up. If he was still obstructed it would be time to let him go. If it was not obstructed and things looked well we would formulate a plan to try one or two more things. If those didn’t work it was also his way of saying no more.
We got a call from the Emergency clinic around 6ish. It was a new vet who had not seen him but studied his charts, x-rays, and talked with many people who had dealt with Ozzie over the previous 48 hours. She told us that the orginal spot that they thought that there was an obstruction was clear now. However they did see some bunching of the intestines that were not right. It wasn’t definitive but he was not doing well and he had not gotten better at all with anything they were trying. He was still vomiting and had Diarrhea both with blood in it. Also his temp would not come down at all. She also said he did not look good and felt that we really needed to come and see him for our own eyes. In her opinion there was a very high chance that he had Intestinal Lymphoma, or some other big issue. I knew she was saying what I was thinking. Ozzie was telling us it was time.
We rushed to Grand Rapids and we all spent some time with him and said our goodbyes. He was happy to see us and purred the entire time but he was not our Ozzie at all. His eyes said it all… it was time and he was ok with it. I could tell he was in pain and he was still having the bloody diarrhea as we were there. He also felt very warm after he crawled into my arms after my parents took the kids to Wendys. The doctor and the tech both confirmed that he was very sick and there wasn’t much to do and we were making the right choice. I gave him once last hug and kiss and left the room. Joel stayed with him and he purred right till the end, was not scared, and went very peacefully.
He will be so missed and as I sit here and type this from the love seat I miss his warm body next to mine. I know it’s gonna take time before I stop looking for him to walk around the corner, curl up in my lap, or even to be busy cleaning Louie. However I do know that he truly changed my life. He was my first ever cat and now I can not ever imagine a time in my life without a cat in our house. He loved us so much and always showed us. He knew our emotions and was often a comforter in times of sadness.
Sir Oswald may you be pain free and floating on clouds of catnip!!!
Secure
Isn’t that word alone one that you aim for in all aspect of your life? I know for us it is… we want our kids secure in our love for them. We also want them safe as well as secure. Many of us wonder how we can do this for our families but also not over doing it. I know I’ve talked about how we once considered getting a security system a while back, but that ultimately we have no need for it. It would be a different story if we live in a big city but we live in a quite town really. My cousin Sara and her husband are currently redoing a house in Baltimore and they would be more in need of a wireless security system then we are. If we were going to live right in downtown Baltimore I know we would most likely get one because there are tons more ways to get into those row houses and a lot more people around as well.
Runaway
Life is really crazy as I am sure you can see for us right now. Sometimes I wish you could just run off to some fancy smancy place and hide out for a few days. Right I think finding a deal at the Riviera hotel in Vegas wouldn’t be a bad plan of fun, except we are already planning on trying to head to Vegas next year for our 10 year anniversary. So I guess I’ll just have to stick to day dreaming about staying at a ritzy place and thinking of nothing else. Anyone want to join me?
Ozzie update
Well we are still not sure 100% what is wrong as he is still not well enough to come home. They are hoping that once the high protein levels leave his body he will start to feel better. Otherwise he might need to transfer to our local vet for a bit more care. I really miss having him here that is for sure. He is such a huge part of our life.
Long Day
My morning started off super early. My dog was running around the room followed by hissing because one of our cats got into our room at 4:30am. My hubby thought he chased the cat out because our cat Ozzie was in the hallway and he is never there. So I am almost asleep and I hear something in the room again. Well apparently the cat that was in our room was a different one. So I got him out of the room and used the bathroom. Well by this time my mind was on and running a mile a min because I had a busy day ahead. I was going to help run a Consigment Sale for my MOPS group, fit in Maddie first ever soccer game, and have the girls go to Lansing for their first overnight with my MIL. So I got up instead of turning in bed and getting antsy.
I thought I’ll just lay on the couch and veg for an hour before I needed to shower and get on the road. Well my cat Ozzie was still in our hallway and I knew something seemed off he only ever hangs out there if a mess from another cat needs to be cleaned up or something else is wrong. It’s his way of getting our attention. So I tried to pet him and love on him and he was not having it. Normally all I have to do is say his name and he’ll purr and run to you. Not this time…I let Joel know to keep an eye on him and then also found a slimy puke with a blood tinge downstairs so I knew he wasn’t doing well.
I left at 6:30am to go work the sale and came home around 11:30am to take Maddie to her game. We went to her game and then came home. I went to change and found him upstairs looking horrible and puking more and not even cleaning himself up. So off I ran him to the emergency vet in GR while Joel took the girls to Ionia to meet my MIL.
$918 later he is in early kidney failure of one kidney and also has some ulcers from the kidney issue. He is there till sometime tomorrow with IV fluids and antibiotics with hopes that he’ll be able to come home and do well for a while on a special food diet. We will know more tomorrow though. There is only so much we want to do for quality of life. Alot of times these cats end up needing weekly-daily IV fluids to keep them healthy and that is not for us or our Ozzie.
On a good note I made well over $200 at the Consignment sale so that should help with the bill for sure!!!